Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Under the Influence of Nyquil
I truly thought I'd be wallowing in depression right now. I thought that I'd be unshowered and unhinged. Sure, I have a playlist made with Beck's Sea Change and Ani Difranco. And I've smoked so many cigarettes on top of my chest cold, it feels like my lungs are bleeding. But I'm not unhappy.
In fact, the opposite is true. I've never lived by myself before. I can shower with the door open. I can wear stripey toe socks and dance around to Jamiroquai. I can watch the AKC Dog Show from beginning to end! Sushi rolls for breakfast, lunch and dinner? No problem! And it's sorta nice.
I know it's all new and shiny right now, and eventually, I'll be stir-crazy. But that's ok. Right now I'm feeling good when really I shouldn't. I was blindsided and learned the relationship I thought was perfectly happy was over. And yes, I've written and erased a hundred posts about it. I cried, I whined, I ranted. And it's useless.
It changes nothing. So I have to deal with what's here. What's here is a new life in an old city, and it's all good.
In fact, the opposite is true. I've never lived by myself before. I can shower with the door open. I can wear stripey toe socks and dance around to Jamiroquai. I can watch the AKC Dog Show from beginning to end! Sushi rolls for breakfast, lunch and dinner? No problem! And it's sorta nice.
I know it's all new and shiny right now, and eventually, I'll be stir-crazy. But that's ok. Right now I'm feeling good when really I shouldn't. I was blindsided and learned the relationship I thought was perfectly happy was over. And yes, I've written and erased a hundred posts about it. I cried, I whined, I ranted. And it's useless.
It changes nothing. So I have to deal with what's here. What's here is a new life in an old city, and it's all good.
// posted by jess @ 9:55 PM 
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These days are something..
Lalalala Oh happy
Goodbye grey skies, hello blue
Nothing can hurt me when I hold you
Feels so right, can't be wrong
Rockin and rollin
ALL WEEK LONG!!
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